On my fourth week now…still looking for the right job…

Sure I have had offers but nothing that would allow my bills to get paid. Today isn’t my best day. I feel the “fork” today. You know…the fork in the road. I feel as if I am approaching a huge decision. I can do one of two things:

(A) Take two jobs and work an enormous amount of hours. (Which means my ministry dreams are over.)
(B) Keep looking for a job that will pay the bills and hope that it will happen before I loose everything.

So far, I’ve picked option B. However, what scares me is how long can I do this before it’s too late and I loose everything no matter what kind of job I find.

You know what really bothers me?

What really bothers me is that if I am going to loose everything, I would rather it be because God has called me to a church or another country…not like this…

I am reminded of a quote I once came across…I don’t remember who said it…

"Our anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, but only empties today of its strength"

Lord, help me today…