Had some revelation last night. Tasted good too. It has had my mind racing all day long. It's the kind of stuff that makes me dream, create, innovate, and explore. A concept hit me through a series of events, scriptures, and a few faithful friends words. I have already shared the "Shamgar Matrix" story...but what about your story?

Has it been told yet? You know...the story of how your a superhero in waiting. Enter atom.

That's right...atom...no...not Adam. Don't get confused...stay with me.

The atom is the smallest unit of an element that retains the chemical properties of that element. Atoms are minuscule objects with proportionately tiny masses that can only be observed individually using special instruments such as the "scanning tunneling" microscope. When an atom is split at it's core it creates what scientist call nuclear fission. When controled it can be the source of a great electrical power. When placed in a missle...well lets just say, when the atom bomb went off in Nagasaki, Japan [during WW2] over 140K people were instantly killed in a tenth of a second.

Want to hear something awesome? There are over 7 and 10-27th atoms...that is 7 followed by 27 zero's...in the human body. You know what that means? It means that God has created you with untapped potential...untapped power.

What are you doing with all that power? Inside that body of yours is the ability to make fiction...fact. Inside you is the ability to make dreams...reality.

Struggled this morning in prayer…

It’s time for a new routine, because the old one is becoming more memory than imagination. I find my greatest moments of happiness lie in imagining the future. My mind races to daydream fanatically. It’s probably why I like shows like “Lost” or “Heroes”. There is definitely a lot of imagination in creating worlds where the impossible becomes reality…where the supernatural is a common occurrence.

Reflecting back over this past Sunday school lesson has me thinking…isn’t that what the Bible is? Extraordinary events unfold in every chapter. The impossible is clearly redefined about as quickly as you can turn a page. Take for instance…Shamgar.

Judges 3:31
"After Ehud came Shamgar son of Anath, who struck down six hundred Philistines with an oxgoad. He too saved Israel."

If you apply the same formula that Pastor Mark Batterson of NCC Church, does in his book, “In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day”, you basically get a scene straight out of the second Matrix movie! Can you imagine that? Shamgar took on 600 people with a big stick, (an oxgoad is a stick that is pointed on one end and like a flat-head screwdriver on the other). Crazy stuff huh? (See the picture below? Best one I could find to show you what I am talking about.)

Here is one of the most profound things a friend of mine said one time. When he said it, it didn’t really register…but today it’s starting to sink in. What he said was this, “If man can imagine it…it can be done.” Didn’t sink in yet did it? It will…give it time. When it does, you won’t be able to wrap your mind around what has been accomplished compared to what might be possible.
The human race dreamed about exploring the stars…today we are doing it. You see what I mean?

The challenge and question becomes, “What are you dreaming about these days?” Whatever it is…be careful…dreams are powerful and have a way of changing the future.

Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, He rescues those whose spirits are crushed.”

This week…this scripture is my anthem. It is my shield. It is my salvation.

Can I be transparent? I struggle with identity issues. Not necessarily with who I am in Christ…but what is my purpose. I have read the books…heard the sermons…and have a good understanding of what my general purpose is, according to the Bible. But…I am looking for something a bit more specific these days. I am looking to understand what I am supposed to be doing in the not too distant future. I know what my heart wants…problem is…when I talk about it, others are quick to tell me that they could not see me doing what I dream of.

I know better than to listen to others…but it’s kind of hard when you extremely respect their opinions and hold them to be great advisors. So my mind races back to uncertainty…and that just leads me to solitude. Which may be just the thing I need for a while. More prayer…less talk…more prayer…less advice…more prayer, more prayer, more prayer.

One thing is for sure…I feel at times as if I take in huge amounts of information from my Bible studies, books, blogs, etc. Is all this education for nothing? Should I just be more focused on living and enjoying life? Should I just give up on dreams that I might not be talented enough, loving enough, sensitive enough for? It makes for a bitter struggle between ministry and happiness…

Everything is new...the sky...the earth...my entire world. I have started over once again at another job. It's a good job and am proud...but there is still that peice of me that would rather slave over building a sound booth, sweating all gross and stuff, than do anything else. Why?

Because it was ministry. Not just for the multitude of teenagers that have enjoyed it over the last 2 weeks...No...it was ministry to me. My heart longs to lay at the alters, to live in the temple...to be continually close to God.

But I have other works right now that need to be done...I have entered a new misson field for a small amount of time...and the harvest is ripe. Pray for me. I feel helpless but hopefull...

Kinda reminds me of the scene in Star Wars...you know...where Princess Lea kneels down and programs R2..."Help me Obi One Kanobi...you're my only hope".

"Help me Jesus Christ...You're my only hope."

(On a side note...I have been writing for the past few days...just no opportunity to post...so rest assured that content is on the way!)

So I am living! I am living my dream…I am not exactly where I want to end up…but I am on the right road. The last month has been an exodus through the desert of unemployment. It’s been an array of emotions. There have been ups and downs…twist and turn…but as of tomorrow, it will be over. Tomorrow, I will peak over the mountains and peer into the promise land.

As of tomorrow, I will officially be employed! The ninja is on the move!

On another note, I visited today with a person that is part of the creative team at Lake Point Church in Rockwall. I interviewed for a creative position, but I have decided to pass it up for another job opportunity. Nevertheless, it was an awesome experience to see a church that employs over 175 people. That’s a lot of folks! I was turned on to some new an interesting employment methods that I was sort of aware of but hadn’t seen them used like they were using…one of them you can find at www.strengthsfinder.com.

I did one of the surveys Strengthsfinder.com and was completely blown away how right on their assessment of me was. It was freaky! If you get a chance to check the site out, I would strongly encourage it!

I have a lot of catching up to do…I have more to upload in the coming days…been pent up for too long.

Luke 2 Vs 40, "There the child grew up healthy and strong. He was filled with wisdom, and God’s favor was on him."

This scripture has been on my mind now for a few weeks. I pray it over my kids...but I can't help pray it over me as well. I will be working a side job, starting at noon, that will have me working till tomorrow. God is an awesome God. Also, got a call this afternoon about a possible contract job with a local company that is looking to do exactly what I have experience in. Déjà vu? I doubt it...God is not leaving my life up to chance...

I have got a few more "i am ninja" post coming...so don't worry...I haven't forgot...Life is just busy sometimes...yes, even when your unemployed! :)

It's Thursday...I know you probably know that. I didn't sleep much last night, too much on my mind that needs to get done. It's going to be a busy month. I'll let you in on my list of stuff that's got to get done...

I am ending an era of website hosting this month. I have been co-locating websites for about 8 years now. At the end of this month it's over. I am setting those web-babies free! Less time on stuff like that frees me up to do a better "kingdom" job. Also finally down to just needing to paint the trim on the sound booth. It turned out great...but I am pretty sure that my talent doesn't lie in building stuff out of wood. That being said and done, it's time to move everything in to the new facility. AWESOME, right? We will be able to house around 300 teens. Can you say, "room for growth"? So...sound system, projectors, stage lights, LCD's, 2 computers, etc...It's gonna take a bit more sweat from me...

On another note...being jobless, I feel at times like I'm dying. Let me explain. I am doing everything I can to look and get a job, but the Lord hasn't opened up the right door just yet. Yes, He has been generous and gracious in the way of financial blessing. However, it feels as if I should be desperate. And to be honest...it's just not how I feel at all...

I don't think I have ever felt more alive in Him. I am living on faith and faith alone and that is a good place to be. I know that at this very moment, the things that have transpired over the past 3 weeks have stretched me into a new and stronger person. I think sometimes we just don't appreciate life until it is stripped of it's luxuries. I am a better man to day having to live on "locust and honey" than I would be eating the food provided by the sweat of my brow. Don't get me wrong...I know I can't live on manna forever...but until God gives me the job He has reserved for me...I'm just gonna keep livin'...L I V I N...

Finally being able to post and I promise not to disappoint. Had a wonderful weekend and was truly blessed over the weekend with an outstanding financial gift from an old friend. God is awesome. I’ll have to post about it sometime…on another note…

As I promised…this month I would start to explain a few details on what this site is about…

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What Is, “I Am Ninja”

Let’s get the obvious out of the way, “What is, “I Am Ninja”?

Let me give you the simplest answer…

Ninja’s are basically soldiers. They have a reputation of being stealthy. Most all of us have seen them in some sort of TV show or movie. A ninja’s job is to accomplish the mission without being detected. A ninja fails their mission when they are detected. Simple right? The collation between being a ninja and ministry hit me while working in a staff supportive role at my local church. While working on the audio/video staff, my job was to make the message run smoothly. Ultimately our goal was to go unnoticed, diverting all attention to the message and the pastor. Shouldn’t this be the heart of all supportive ministries?

Supportive ministry is a calling. It is just as important as being in a pastoral position. Supportive ministry isn’t easy either. It requires a lot of humility. In the “Web 2.0” world of all about me, supportive ministry declares that it can never be about you. It can never point back to you. Take for instance the story of Jonathon and his armor bearer as they headed to battle the Philistines. Can you recall the name of his armor bearer? No? That’s because it’s not mentioned. I know that was sort of a trick question but my point is that supportive roles never bring attention to themselves. It’s not about them. Jonathon’s armor bearer was obviously close to Jonathon. He shared in his greatest moments and in his secret moments just before a battle. However, the goal was to support his leader. Even in the most intense of situations we find this unknown servant following Jonathon into, what would appear, an un-winnable situation. Why? Because he believed in his leader and he believed in the mission. His name isn’t important, but the message that is told from the incident is.